I’m not joking. I thought I needed strong sensations from BDSM to come. Wax, impact plays…pains. That’s how I enjoyed sex….sort of. I never come, but I needed domination and physical sensations. Recently, I enjoyed 2 different sex. The first is with a person who knows that I am a sub, but he himself isContinue reading “Once a sub, always a sub”
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What kind of sub am I? Möbius of, and tangled emotions of a dom and a sub
…I don’t know. Not sure what the ‘label’ is for me. I feed off dom’s pleasure. I love observing the dom’s face, his voice and whatever I can feel from where he touches me. Soft touch. Hard grabbing. His temperature. His shortening and excited breath. His hoarse voice. Him having fun doing what he wantsContinue reading “What kind of sub am I? Möbius of, and tangled emotions of a dom and a sub”
Intensity junkie bottom
Oh I couldn’t think the right title for this one. It’s also difficult to think how to properly label it too. When it comes to sex and BDSM, I don’t want one which is lovely, calm, peaceful gentle and soothing. I want….the intensity and sensation which push me to the limit. Not soft. Not sensual.Continue reading “Intensity junkie bottom”
S
Whilst I’ve deleted the post which I asked and went looking for someone on Fet (because that was a big mistake), I still get messages from people who won’t read any of my profile or writings. Most of them, I don’t even reply. Too many of those ones, unfortunately. Some, because of the courtesy they’veContinue reading “S”
Weirdly wired
I’m an extremely private person. 98% introvert, as my current boss joked. But I was thinking about what I did before. I went to several BDSM/sex parties. And this was instigated by me, not my partner. I dragged him promising different things, which might’ve been fulfilled (may have not). Some were private parties where IContinue reading “Weirdly wired”
Using and not caring
I liked to be ‘used’. Whatever the dom wants to do to me. Whatever excites him. I want to be on the receiving end. Being used. That’s my fantasy. On one hand, I might say that I want the dom to not care about me. Whatever he wants to do. But that is not true.Continue reading “Using and not caring”
Playing with your /my mind
Mind fuck. Mind play. Can be called something else. Can be called anything. But I haven’t met anyone who can play with my mind as he pleases. Talking to the conscious and unconscious mind. In the state that I’m unconsciously moving and feeling what you want me to do and feel. It’s not easy. IfContinue reading “Playing with your /my mind”
Unsent letter (con’d)
I think I act patiently when I should have not. In my real life and in my BDSM life. I know at work, I let people take advantage of me too often. I’m dominant at work, but that doesn’t stop more manipulative people to take advantage of me. However, I’ve always had a view thatContinue reading “Unsent letter (con’d)”
Unsent letter
Someone else did this….and I’m copying the idea (Yes J! if you are reading). It’s a letter that is not going to be sent. He may read this if he comes here, but I doubt it. So I got a message that this is not going to work. This, meaning our relationship whatever the nameContinue reading “Unsent letter”
Childish and attention seeking
It seems weird that I, as a mature woman, seems to get childish when I am with a dominant – either in person or online. I pride myself on being mature. As I said several times, a problem solver, and analyst. If I take a step back, I see a woman who is just actingContinue reading “Childish and attention seeking”