I’m not joking. I thought I needed strong sensations from BDSM to come. Wax, impact plays…pains. That’s how I enjoyed sex….sort of. I never come, but I needed domination and physical sensations. Recently, I enjoyed 2 different sex. The first is with a person who knows that I am a sub, but he himself isContinue reading “Once a sub, always a sub”
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What kind of sub am I? Möbius of, and tangled emotions of a dom and a sub
…I don’t know. Not sure what the ‘label’ is for me. I feed off dom’s pleasure. I love observing the dom’s face, his voice and whatever I can feel from where he touches me. Soft touch. Hard grabbing. His temperature. His shortening and excited breath. His hoarse voice. Him having fun doing what he wantsContinue reading “What kind of sub am I? Möbius of, and tangled emotions of a dom and a sub”
Intensity junkie bottom
Oh I couldn’t think the right title for this one. It’s also difficult to think how to properly label it too. When it comes to sex and BDSM, I don’t want one which is lovely, calm, peaceful gentle and soothing. I want….the intensity and sensation which push me to the limit. Not soft. Not sensual.Continue reading “Intensity junkie bottom”
C’est la vie
I haven’t written anything for a while. My vanilla life has been crazily busy. I have been talking to a therapist who is kink friendly. It’s been great to talk to her about kink and sex. Whilst any therapist will say that we can be totally honest, I’ve seen the therapist’s face shows that theyContinue reading “C’est la vie“
Encounter
At 10 minutes before the agreed time, I’m standing at the corridor of a hotel. For the hotel security team, I may look suspicious just standing here for so long. So, I keep on looking at my mobile just to make it look like I’m reading something on it. I’m just staring at my screen. Continue reading “Encounter”
Dream
Damn. I can keep cursing all day long. I’m so sexually frustrated. Dreamt of a BDSM encounter. Based on his sexts and stories. In it, I was going nuts with pain and pleasure. But feeling so cared for and guarded. Just concentrating on what my body tells me, not what I ‘think’ about it. IContinue reading “Dream”
Fire (repost)
Note: this is a repost of the earlier post of today. But different. So I can’t climax at the moment. No toys, favourite videos, novels, sexts won’t work. I didn’t use to, so it should be OK, doesn’t it? But I’m not. I can’t go back to the time and place when I didn’t careContinue reading “Fire (repost)”
Dreaming
Just as he hypnotised me…. No, of course, I would’ve done so anyway without hypnosis. I dream about what we played online, his fuck, his BDSM session every night. Because it makes my body hot. I’ve stopped touching myself like I used to. Because I’m crying in my dream. Not from pain or pleasure. I’veContinue reading “Dreaming”
Playing with your /my mind
Mind fuck. Mind play. Can be called something else. Can be called anything. But I haven’t met anyone who can play with my mind as he pleases. Talking to the conscious and unconscious mind. In the state that I’m unconsciously moving and feeling what you want me to do and feel. It’s not easy. IfContinue reading “Playing with your /my mind”
Abduction or being chased?
It’s been one of those days…I just want to put down something in writing to keep my mind busy. I have taken today off work, as I haven’t eaten from last Friday. I couldn’t eat. I need to drink more. Dehydrated. My cats are beside me, one is worrying and one is…..don’t care, he’s justContinue reading “Abduction or being chased?”