“Do you feel like getting dirty?” you said with that evil smile that I love. “Not yet.” I tease you. I know you can’t wait anymore, and I can see you getting hard, but let’s see if you could hold it for a moment, if you get upset or if you would punish me. “HowContinue reading “Second glass”
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Handing control
When I cry at night that I can’t climax, that’s on the top of my list to worry. Because when I wasn’t able to, it made me feel defective. Then, with his help, starting to loosen up my body and my mind, but that came to a sudden halt too. I’m also working too much,Continue reading “Handing control”
Encounter
At 10 minutes before the agreed time, I’m standing at the corridor of a hotel. For the hotel security team, I may look suspicious just standing here for so long. So, I keep on looking at my mobile just to make it look like I’m reading something on it. I’m just staring at my screen. Continue reading “Encounter”
Dream
Damn. I can keep cursing all day long. I’m so sexually frustrated. Dreamt of a BDSM encounter. Based on his sexts and stories. In it, I was going nuts with pain and pleasure. But feeling so cared for and guarded. Just concentrating on what my body tells me, not what I ‘think’ about it. IContinue reading “Dream”
Key
I lost my key somewhere. Somewhere, sometime when I decided to be strong. When I decided that I would live alone and independent. I couldn’t let my key be hostage by a man. From my verandah, looking at the river flowing, I let the key fall off my hand. I saw it going down. IContinue reading “Key”
Pain
I like impact plays….cane…..crop…..belt…..and finally hands, which I like the most. It makes me excited when I walk to a chair or bed. Scared but aroused. I can feel you watching my every step. I take slow steps, not because I want to. But my brain and my body are telling me something different. I’mContinue reading “Pain”
Fire (repost)
Note: this is a repost of the earlier post of today. But different. So I can’t climax at the moment. No toys, favourite videos, novels, sexts won’t work. I didn’t use to, so it should be OK, doesn’t it? But I’m not. I can’t go back to the time and place when I didn’t careContinue reading “Fire (repost)”
Dreaming
Just as he hypnotised me…. No, of course, I would’ve done so anyway without hypnosis. I dream about what we played online, his fuck, his BDSM session every night. Because it makes my body hot. I’ve stopped touching myself like I used to. Because I’m crying in my dream. Not from pain or pleasure. I’veContinue reading “Dreaming”
Abduction or being chased?
It’s been one of those days…I just want to put down something in writing to keep my mind busy. I have taken today off work, as I haven’t eaten from last Friday. I couldn’t eat. I need to drink more. Dehydrated. My cats are beside me, one is worrying and one is…..don’t care, he’s justContinue reading “Abduction or being chased?”
Childish and attention seeking
It seems weird that I, as a mature woman, seems to get childish when I am with a dominant – either in person or online. I pride myself on being mature. As I said several times, a problem solver, and analyst. If I take a step back, I see a woman who is just actingContinue reading “Childish and attention seeking”