Vulnerable and being a sub

I despise making someone I can’t let go of. Also, I don’t think a guy would really want me. Sexually.I’m far from sexually appealing. Maybe that’s why I stepped into BDSM world 30 years ago.If this is BDSM universe, I reasoned, someone ‘may’ look at me.Maybe I’m sexually attractive to someone, I thought. I alsoContinue reading “Vulnerable and being a sub”

What kind of sub am I? Möbius of, and tangled emotions of a dom and a sub

…I don’t know. Not sure what the ‘label’ is for me. I feed off dom’s pleasure. I love observing the dom’s face, his voice and whatever I can feel from where he touches me. Soft touch. Hard grabbing. His temperature. His shortening and excited breath. His hoarse voice. Him having fun doing what he wantsContinue reading “What kind of sub am I? Möbius of, and tangled emotions of a dom and a sub”

Dreaming

Just as he hypnotised me…. No, of course, I would’ve done so anyway without hypnosis. I dream about what we played online, his fuck, his BDSM session every night. Because it makes my body hot. I’ve stopped touching myself like I used to. Because I’m crying in my dream. Not from pain or pleasure. I’veContinue reading “Dreaming”