It’s been one of those days…I just want to put down something in writing to keep my mind busy. I have taken today off work, as I haven’t eaten from last Friday. I couldn’t eat. I need to drink more. Dehydrated. My cats are beside me, one is worrying and one is…..don’t care, he’s just happy that I’m not working.
I love abduction and interrogation scenes. Never done it in real-life as role-playing. Just loved to imagine in my head. I’m trying to remember, but I must’ve had this scene in my head (without sexual aspects) since I was a small kid. I wonder why I am so attracted.
However, what really excites me is a scene where I escape from the capturers (I know I am captured by military personnel, but not sure why or who I am -spy? resistance? ), but captured again. lol. Cornered in an alley. Too much imagination. And the interrogation and the punishment follows.
Yep. The interrogator/commander who punishes me is the Dom, so of course, I’m excited by the punishment. Is it the case that I want to be chased by someone? I know I loved the story about Orpheus when I was a small kid. I think that was one of the role-playings we did (lol) with my brother (I think I was 7 and my brother was 6? I don’t know why we liked role-playing so much). So there must be something about someone chasing me, coming after me.
Punished about escaping, interrogated about the escape route and actually excited about who the interrogator is.
Of course, the interrogator must be someone I can be excited. In the story, it’s usually someone that I loved from far, but couldn’t have interaction with until I was caught. Then getting excited getting one-on-one time with this person and interrogated.
But for some reason, there needs to be an escape, cornered (uhhhh.. there could be forced sex there too. ) and captured to go with the interrogation, so not a straight interrogation scene. The severe punishment excites me.
Why does it have to be military? Not sure. Not a police….not a jail. lol These situations won’t excite me, so there must be something about intelligent military officers. A really intelligent person who can see through me.
The funny thing is that I loved the scenes in my head (of course, it’s a combination of all books and movies that I read) even before I dated a military officer working in intelligence. I didn’t imagine any scenes with him so I must’ve intentionally avoided them. haha.
For some reason, the novel Angelique came into my mind as that one has lots of scenes about escape and punishment (NB: This is not a BDSM novel, it’s just an extra long novel around Louis 14th era). This novel also has a lot of forced sex scenes. I suddenly remembered now….weird…..I read it when I was about 12-13 years old. Mom read them too and wasn’t bothered by the sex scenes. I think she even told me how hot one of the scene is, and that scene was a forced sex scene in the dungeon. I’m now getting confused about how weird she was.
My scenario goes on and on…..It’s making me hot…..