I sometimes just go into a small girl mode. I can’t help it. By that, I know it doesn’t help to say it, but I just say anything I want to the prospective Dom. And the big girl comes back saying to me, ‘uh that wasn’t a right thing to say to him. You areContinue reading “Big girl v small girl in me”
Monthly Archives: January 2022
Messaging your partner and forming a bond
Forming a bond by instant messagings are norm now. Especially for meeting BDSM partners. But is it giving a false sense of security?
Being honest is tough
I hold my emotions. I fear being truthful about my emotions. But BDSM allows me to be true me.
Dark and deep connection – what excites me
Why does BDSM excite me? Why do I want to submit? Why did even a food play even excited me?
Permission to be a slut
I don’t allow anyone to call me a slut. But I want to be a slut for the person I choose. Be a slut that I can freely release my bdsm and sexual desires.
Edging
So…..I’m masturbating about 2-3 times a day….feel like going crazy. However, also getting frustrated as I edge and I don’t completely come. That’s why I can’t just have one masturbation. Really frustrating. I don’t think I’ve truly come in BDSM, sex or masturbation… I know why I couldn’t come in sex, partly physical issues andContinue reading “Edging”
BDSM – the right way?
There’s no right BDSM or wrong way. There’s our way that I’ve agreed with the ‘dom’. I also don’t care what it is called. You don’t owe an explanation.
A perfectionist and failing
What does it mean to be a perfect sub without being a door mat? How should I deal with my emotions?
It’s called oversharing
Recently, I done something crazy. For whatever reason, on one sunny weekend afternoon, I suddenly wanted to share the BDSM clips (which can be found online) that I like with the prospective Dom. Don’t ask why. I don’t even know. And did it. It’s probably good that I felt comfortable that I could share theseContinue reading “It’s called oversharing”
Control or connect
A dominant doesn’t control me. A good dominant connects and reads me well.