I’ve been thinking what I like, dislike and want to experience.
I don’t think my body can tolerate hard bondages now, like Japanese rope works that I used to love. Additionally, the natural ropes that are used for the rope works are supposed to be treated before the usage so that the ropes won’t unintentionally damage the subs’ skins, but I don’t think that part was properly communicated when the hemp/jute ropes became popular outside Japan.
I like any form of bondage. Ropes, leather, scarf, belt, towel. Really. Anything. I also like my body held down by the Dom’s hands. Wrists, neck, my ankles or anyway he holds me. Anyway that I can feel his power and strength.
I used to like it because I couldn’t do anything. I liked the fact that I couldn’t move. I can’t help to feel pleasure if it is given by the Dom and just had to accept it. So the bondage I used to like were very tight ones, that I couldn’t move. It also hightened my senses that I may not have felt if I was not tied. I also liked the quiet time that Dom was binding ropes around me. It just gave me a quiet time that I can go into a sub mode. Not to mention how beautiful the ropes were around my body. The ropes also gave me bruise and marks that would’ve lasted few days that reminded me of the time with the Dom.
I still like the bondage. But it doesn’t have to be by tight ropes.
It doesn’t need to be as tight as before. It doesn’t have to be by a rope. Oh I’m saying it doesn’t have to be. But if that’s what the Dom wants to give me, I will happily take them. Of course.
My interest seems have been changed. I still want to be bound but so that I can take anything that the Dom may give me. I don’t want to feel ‘forced’ like I did before. I want to feel the Dom’s strength, his pleasure through every part of my skin. I want to see the Dom get excited by using various bondage artefacts on me, or his hands.
I know from my experience that bondage will heighten and intensify my sense. My skin. I also don’t want to intentionally fight (unless that’s the play we engage) but take whatever the Dom wants to do to me. I don’t need to worry that I might unintentionally fight what the Dom wants to do. I don’t have to worry that I might put my hand up to stop the Dom or I might want to cover my face.
Bound, I can take anything that the Dom will give me. Whether it is a pain or a pleasure.
When I cannot move my body as I want to, I will be able to concentrate of the Dom’s movement, his words and anything he does. If I can’t move my head or body, I may not be able to see everything that he is doing. I might have to imagine what he would do next if I can’t see. Sense where he is moving.
Within the room I will be in with the Dom, there will be a smaller and more intense space created. Where the Dom can do whatever he wants to do, and also fuck my mind.
I can’t wait to experience being bound by someone whom I can completely trust. I could be content and also scared. If so, will I close my eyes fearing that the Dom can see through me, or will I leave my eyes open because I want to see how the Dom is excited?
I may not need to be bound, really. If there is a Dom who can bound me by his words and his domination. If there is a right person, I know that I don’t feel like fighting, even just to be a brat.