I have an important meeting today. I’ve prepared enough for today, and I know I can answer any questions that’ll come from the Board of the company.
I am an expert in this field, I tell myself. I know I can do this.
My boss asked me yesterday whether I had rehearsed it. I smiled to him and said ‘no, I don’t have to’. But I am prepared for any questions.
I’ve decided that I’ll put on my ‘uniform’. A white blouse with a bow tied in front, dark suits and pin heel shoes. I have a leather folio which has all my notes. My favourite fountain pen pinned to the folio. I know I don’t have to be this formal as the company culture is very relaxed, and so are our Board members.
Still, I decided with this outfit. I have my hair tied and pinned at the top of my head. A full make up on. I take time wearing mascaras. My hands are shaking and cold. Finally I put on my red lipstick. I can do it, I say to myself. There is a confident woman in the mirror. My red manicures are set too.
Is the length of my skirt too short? I wonder. Could be bit short. I can imagine our Company Secretary looking at me surprinsingly. But that’s fine, I know she won’t say anything. She’ll just shake her head in disbelief thinking ‘these young girls’. No this should be OK. A pair of black stockings….ok.
It feels weird as we’ve been all working from home for over 2 years. And it also feels weird as I hadn’t worn suits for almost 3 years. I didn’t need to. Yet I chose to, on this occasion.
I start to read my presentation and notes that I have made. I know everything inside out. Still, I want to be prepared. Is there anything I missed? I make some last minute additional memos. Shit. I can’t concentrate.
I sip a coffee. My cat is sitting next to me on the table looking at me asking what’s happening. She senses there’s something different from usual.
Soft sigh. My mind starts to wander.
You haven’t seen me like this. All I’ve let you see is a soft, calm and gentle sub that goes crazy about you when we spend time together. I scream and cry. I get excited by anything you do to me. A sub who will only look at you. A sub who giggles and smiles at whatever you say. A sub who acts like a small kid being protected by you. A sub who will do anything you want.
You know what I do at work. But I wondered if you could imagine me how I look and act at work. We’ve always joked about how I would look in suits but you never had a chance to see me wearing them. I didn’t give you a chance to.
That was intentional…Master.
Are my pinheel shoes too high? Maybe. Maybe not.
My mobile vibrates. “Good luck today x”, a message from you.
“Thank you x” I reply.
A deep breath.
I open the boardroom door.
Everyone is chatting. I know most of the people in this room so I start going around the room chatting to them. My boss is there too. Looking a bit surprised.
I feel someone is staring at me. Following every move.
I act as if nothing is happening.
Then the Chairman approaches me and says ‘Oh, I think you haven’t met him. Let me introduce you to our latest member of the Board’.
I put on my best smile and extend my hand ‘Oh hi, nice to meet you’.
You smile and extend your hand towards me. The hand I know very well. Your warm hand which makes me go crazy, wipes my tears and calms me down.
You stare at me. Oh my. You look serious checking me from the head to toe. But I can feel you imagining me stripping down naked. That’s not good, Master. That’s a look you give me, when you are planning something very naughty. No, no. You can’t look at me like that now, Master. Naughty.
We chitchat what we already know. Talking to each other in a way nobody else will understand.
Everyone takes a seat. I am walking towards the front of the room.
I feel you are looking at me. Well, everyone is looking at me. But you look kind of amused too.
Only you know why I chose this outfit. Do you like it?
Only you imagine whether I have my undies on or not. Which way is it?
Only you imagine whether I’m wearing a garter belt holding my stockings.
Do you like my pinheel shoes?
I start talking……dominantly, professionally and calmly. You haven’t seen me like this. Do you like your sub acting this way?
‘Any questions?’
I ask.
‘….Yes.’
I look at the person who spoke up. I know who it is. Haha. You can’t help yourself, can you? You are smiling, but I know that question won’t be an easy one.
‘……………………?’
I almost gave you a cold look. Damn you. Can’t you just give me a break? You did not have to ask that question.
OK. I accept your challenge. If you want to play it that way, let’s do it.
‘Well….in my view……’
I see you smiling. Calming me down.
Damn, master.
This is why I like you.
This is why you like me.
What’s our play going to be like, this evening?
It’s going to be hot, isn’t it?