Trust and BDSM. Another buzz word for domination and submission. Trust that your/sub’s limit won’t be breached. Trust that the sub will speak up when there is something wrong. So that the sub won’t be hurt and dom won’t unintentionally hurt the sub. Before we go into trust in BDSM (could be another topic givenContinue reading “Trust..and lies”
Monthly Archives: October 2021
Name
Slut…Slave….Sub….I’m not too fussed about how I am called. Just depends on who is calling me by that name. Sometimes I just acted as I don’t care but usually didn’t like being called by these names. As the same Dom would’ve called other people by that name too. They are not unique to me. AnyoneContinue reading “Name”
Thirst
I crave to be a submissive. To whom I can hand over my total control. To whom I can submit. To whom I can look up to. I haven’t been in a BDSM relationship for a while. I also haven’t been in the BDSM relationship continuously. There were years of gaps between when I hadContinue reading “Thirst”
Loving and coming
Loving oneself is….difficult. I never loved myself. My body. Or Me. BDSM gave me momentary and strong pleasure but didn’t give me a total climax. Never had I passed out from pleasure or pain. I let myself go to the edge of climax and kept myself there. Then I took a deep breath, took myselfContinue reading “Loving and coming”
Is there a ‘checklist’?
You can easily find multiple versions of BDSM checklist online. What you want to do, may consider doing and what you don’t want to do. Soft limits, hard limits. However, chatting to a friend, I noticed that she was so hyped up about what they would do in a play session. I started asking someContinue reading “Is there a ‘checklist’?”
Challenge
I keep on thinking. From time to time. During the day. During the night with wines. During the night in my bed. What kind of a sub do I want to be this time? Whilst my heart says I want to be an obedient and good sub, I don’t think I will be. That’s notContinue reading “Challenge”
Prep
A sunny weekend day in Australia. In the middle of afternoon. I am sitting at my lounge chair with my cup of tea…and what my mind starts to wander is about BDSM. About the potential Dom. About the potential play. What I want. What he wants. I re-read some of the messages that I sent.Continue reading “Prep”
ice cold drop
There is a moment that I cannot forget. There is a moment that I cannot replicate. I was tied by ropes, suspended from the ceiling. My body wasn’t mine. Could be only moved by the dom when he touched me. When he swung me around. There were pains from the ropes and my weight….but strangelyContinue reading “ice cold drop”
BDSM in non-mother tongue?
Even having lived in English speaking countries for more than half of my life (including some years as a kid), I used to think I had issues communicating my internal feelings to my partners in English. I envied whenever a lady from the same country is (vanilla) partnered with an English speaking guy and thatContinue reading “BDSM in non-mother tongue?”
Rein
I have so many unfinished drafts on this site, and ones in other previous sites that I’ve created and abandoned. Some are still floating somewhere in the sea of the Internet. Some may have already sank to the bottom of the sea. Not sure if I have enough vocabulary to express what I want toContinue reading “Rein”